It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly
Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...To...
Last night was rough for me. It really was. I was forced to face some things that I have kept in for a really long time. There are time when I wonder what in the world is going on in my life. I made a promise to myself and God a few months ago... I was gonna give it all to him. Every single nasty detail of it. But you know what I know, Satan had other plans as usual and he chose last night to make me doubt. After calling a good friend (and my minister) Greg, I think I have calmed down a little.
Surrendering to God doesn't mean I have to stop living, it means I get to start living and see the plan God has laid out for me.
Jeremiah 29:11 says, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"
God has a plan for all of us... nothing we may be able to see right now but if we give up all the selfishness and desires that we have and place all our trust in God, we will have a future like none other. Surrendering is not always easy and we will have the temptation to return to our old selves which is where I was last night. "Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you" (James 4:7). Even Jesus was tempted while he was in the desert by Satan but He did what we need to do, resist and Satan will go away. It may not be easy and knowing Satan like I do I imagine he will try to find other ways but we have to stand firm in what we believe and trust God will do what He says He will.
I love you all and thank you so much for just being there. Until tomorrow, Lord willing.....