Tony and I have been dating a close to two years. May will be two years to be exact and things are really good. Not that we don't have our moments of " I need to be alone" but we deal with them responsibly and respectfully and well.. we are good. There is not a day that goes by, not one single day, that one of us have not heard this question " So, when are y'all getting married?" So much so, that it's almost like a game to see who gets asked the most. We both just kind of blow the question off, saying "when it's time" and move on.
Now, I will admit and he would tell you, I am probably more ready than him. I'm almost 38 so in my mind, all I think is I am getting older and I wanna still have that white picket fence and two rocking chairs on my porch to have someone to grow old with. But Tony, my very level headed boyfriend always tells me, "one day at a time, two would be too many." So I wait..... Over the holidays I started thinking about it a little more and I read a devotional that said "Are you waiting patiently for God's will? Not for a man, but for God Himself?" And I realized... I have not been waiting patiently on God. I mean I do try, and I have asked God for patience, but in all honesty, I want what I see everyone has, or at least think they have anyway and that is not good. And God knows it's not. And I do remember once our minister saying if you ask God for something, be careful cause He just might give it to you. Instead of worrying about my picket fence 20 years from now, God wants me to concentrate on today. On the things I do and say, how I put myself out there for others, my willingness to help when needed and my daily walk with Him. After all, I could be dead tomorrow. I love this verse:
Romans 8:28 (NIV) "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
I can rush the process (as I have with so many things many times before) but knowing what I know now, it'll probably end in a big mess. God is going to work everything out he way HE wants to in HIS own time. And when that time comes... I promise to let you all know!! : )
Be blessed my friends!!