Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Still waiting....

Tony and I have been dating a close to two years. May will be two years to be exact and things are really good. Not that we don't have our moments of " I need to be alone" but we deal with them responsibly and respectfully and well.. we are good. There is not a day that goes by, not one single day, that one of us have not heard this question " So, when are y'all getting married?" So much so, that it's almost like a game to see who gets asked the most. We both just kind of blow the question off, saying "when it's time" and move on.

Now, I will admit and he would tell you, I am probably more ready than him. I'm almost 38 so in my mind, all I think is I am getting older and I wanna still have that white picket fence and two rocking chairs on my porch to have someone to grow old with. But Tony, my very level headed boyfriend always tells me, "one day at a time, two would be too many." So I wait..... Over the holidays I started thinking about it a little more and I read a devotional that said "Are you waiting patiently for God's will? Not for a man, but for God Himself?" And I realized... I have not been waiting patiently on God. I mean I do try, and I have asked God for patience, but in all honesty, I want what I see everyone has, or at least think they have anyway and that is not good. And God knows it's not. And I do remember once our minister saying if you ask God for something, be careful cause He just might give it to you. Instead of worrying about my picket fence 20 years from now, God wants me to concentrate on today. On the things I do and say, how I put myself out there for others, my willingness to help when needed and my daily walk with Him. After all, I could be dead tomorrow. I love this verse:

Romans 8:28 (NIV) "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

I can rush the process (as I have with so many things many times before) but knowing what I know now, it'll probably end in a big mess. God is going to work everything out he way HE wants to in HIS own time. And when that time comes... I promise to let you all know!! : )

Be blessed my friends!!


  1. Girl, you are speaking to me today! Not so much about marriage and the picket fence but on waiting for God. I know that I am in a hurry to get to the point of school and a career but I have to stop and think that maybe God doesn't want me there yet. He knows what is on our hearts and he knows when we need it and will provide it to us at the right time.

    Thanks for the reminder;)

  2. What a wonderful post! Your voice comes through so beautifully, I feel like I could hear the peace and grace in it that could only came from your faith. You say you are impatient, but your post have calmed the most impatient there is - me. I am in an waiting / thinking / figuring out direction time and I am so glad to post like yours and people like you to remind me He is in control. My brother said over the holiday period: humility and wait are the two greatest trials for Christians. I agree and I love that we can cheer each other on while we wait.

  3. I have to remind MYSELF He is in control of everything. I am a fixer and don't think I need help on most days. It literally takes knocking me to my knees for me to remember who is running this and every show!!

  4. I am a fixer and self depender too as people I depend on tend to disappear after a while so I learned over time. I love how God is teaching me to depend on him, one step at a time. It is really tough. Your reminder is awesome, He is in control and his plan is better than mine.