So I started exercising again. It's been a week now. And I have been trying my best to eat right, but that part takes some time I guess. and it has been good. I have felt good, been sleeping good (probably from being tired) and I know that in time, it will all pay off if I stick to it.

And then I woke up this morning, opened my closet and just stood there a good 10 minutes I know as I proceeded to take out clothes and throw them to the side because they didn't fit, it didn't look right, my STOMACH, UGHHHHHH, too little, too big. And I realized that the whole "it will pay off in time, if I stick to it" was something I wanted right NOW and not in time.

I hate waiting. I like to be able to handle issues and do the stuff I need to do right when it happens. No need in dragging things out. I can't tell you how many times I have prayed to the Lord for Him to give me the answers I need. Of course when I prayed to Him, I wasn't expecting it to take years to get an answer, I kind of wanted it right then. It would have made things a whole lot easier for me I tell ya. But then I wonder if He really HAS answered me and I have so much going on or just don't like the answer I got, and wait for something else. In Psalms it says " I took my troubles to God and He answered."

God really does have plan and purpose for all of our lives and sometimes the things we want, may not be in those plans. God answers our prayers, not always in the way we would like for Him too, in His own and perfect time, which I have told people before, is not necessarily our time frame. We just have to really be still and listen.

I struggle with weight but honestly, I have never prayed about losing weight, or exercising or anything like that. I do however, think it's very important to God that my body is healthy. Now, does that mean I give up McDonald's fries or have to be a perfect size 6... ahhhhhh NOOO so don't look for me to, but I do realize that in order for me to be the best I can be in God's kingdom, all aspects of my life have to be in order. Not just the ones I pick and choose.

I want it now though. I don't want to have to do the work that goes into making all of this happen, but as with anything else in our lives, everything in it's own time and season and for a reason. I just pray God gives me the patience and guidance I need to win this fight too!

Babbling... that's how my brain feels this morning but oh well. : )

I pray you all have had a really great week so far and that it continues. Shauwan's mom is home from the hospital but still has more treatments to take so she will be coming back and forth to the hospital to take those so keep praying! God is listening!! Be blessed everyone and make sure you are passing those blessing along to someone else! Love ya and until next time, Lord willing...

I have always been the type of person who had alot of "friends". Tony is the complete opposite of me. He has a few friends but is really cautious about who he lets in his life, for whatever reason. As I have gotten older though, I realize that not all these people are what I would call true friends. I mean sure, they make me laugh, but do they really love me enough to share with me what God has done for them and vice versa. Are they the kind of friends that are helping me grow in my daily walk with Christ or are they just there so I can say I have 900 "friends" on Facebook?

Things really kind of hit home for me this past weekend. I went to two funerals, one of which was a friend of mine that I worked with. Jeff was a great guy and I really mean that. There is not a soul that can say a negative word about him, not one. But honestly, even after working with him, I have no idea where he was with God. I heard the people talking about him at his funeral and from that I got that he loved God and they knew he was with Jesus now. And that's a good thing, I just never knew it.

I am doing a ladies Bible class at church and I cannot tell you how good that's been for me. And to be quite honest, it's not just about the study. It's about my friends, who pray for and with me, my friends who care if I am making the right choices, my friends who know by the tone of my voice or the look on my face that something is wrong. And its not just to get the latest gossip, it's because they care and want me to be the best I can be for God.

Ephesians 4:16: From him [Christ] the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.

Again, I am reminded of what Pam always says, " be blessed and BE A BLESSING". So many times we forget that last part cause we want what we want and tend to forget about the rest of the world. It's not always about giving someone something they can touch, but blessing them with God's word and His love. I thank God for my friends, I really do. They are a true blessing to me and I am not even sure they know it!

I pray for Jeff's family. Death is hard enough, but for a mother to lose a child... I can't imagine. I pray for my friend Shauwan and her mom. They found out that Mrs. Daniels has a rare blood disease that was causing her plasma to basically kill her. Thank GOD they caught it in time and are doing a transfusion as we speak. I saw her Saturday and she was feeling much better. I pray for Charlene's mom, Mrs Heath. She started Chemo and as expected, has good and bad days.

It's been a long weekend. But through it all, God is good. Until next time, be a blessing for someone!

Hey ladies!

I apologize for not writing this week. I have been doing the taxi cab thing for my daughter. She actually got her very first job and starts tonight. So between getting work permits, finding works shoes and her just being a teenager, I have been running like crazy. She is excited. I am excited. It's not like she will be a millionaire from Burger King, but she is about to learn some valuable lessons and she has no idea that it's even coming. She thinks this is going to be a cake walk. The reality of still keeping a B or above average in all of her classes, playing three sports, still having to do her stuff around the house and now a job on top of it... well, lets just say, I think some of my fussing and yelling over the years is about to kick into full force. Say a prayer for her.. she starts tonight AFTER softball practice.. haha!

I love you all and no doubt, this work thing is going to make for some GREAT blogs in the future!!! "Be blessed and be a blessing."

I would say that this past weekend went down in the books as one that was not so good. From the start, it was one drama, one issue after another and I do not do well with
that at all. I think the only time I moved Saturday was to get up and go to the bathroom, and to go talk to my mom and dad for about an hour. My kids, praise God, are old enough to be pretty self sufficient so the cooking, and stuff of that nature, I don't have to worry about if they really need something. Although they stayed under me the entire time I was laying down anyway.

Depression... it's not something I would wish on my worst enemy. And the thing about it is for a long time, you truck along without a care in the world, and then, Satan, well, I guess he gets tired of the fact that you have seemingly no problems so he throws a monkey wrench in everything. So when I got up Sunday morning to get ready for church, honestly I didn't want to go, but I knew once I got there, I would probably be OK. And how right I was.

I love how when God's people get together, things just "happen". Romans 1:12 -
"that is, that we may be mutually encouraged by each other's faith, both yours and mine." From the moment I walked in the door, all the stress and worries went away, literally. I got hugs, kisses from the children there, compliments, and more importantly, encouragement from my Christian family which is what God expects from all of us. And for that I say Thank you! You were and are truly my blessing!

I hope that the weekend for all of you went well. We got some much needed rain and that was NICE! I love you all, and until next time, "be blessed and be a blessing!"

Prayer....

Yesterday was kind of an emotional day for anyone who has been keeping up with the Casey Anthony case. I would say emotions were running kind of high as the court read the NOT GUILTY verdict for the death/murder of her 2 year old child. And I get it, I'm kinda smart actually... burden of proof and all that ya ya....blah blah blah. But she did it and it really didn't and still doesn't seem fair to wake up this morning knowing that after she gets MAYBE a year of two (probably time served) for lying to the police (which also doesn't make much sense), after her books and movies come out and she becomes RICH off of America, that she gets to walk a free woman.

But then as I settled down some, I realized, she is not really free. If in fact she did kill her daughter, her final judge will take care of it. THEN, after I thought about that, I thought about something else.... who am I to judge. I mean really? As awful, as sick and demonic as her crime was..... it really is no worse than any other sin that God talks about. I had to wrap my mind last night around the fact that when I lie, when I use the Lord's name in vain, when I have too much to drink and become drunk, God is not pleased. That there is no where in the Bible that says that one sin is worse than another... and I looked it up last night for a long time cause I was honestly trying to find an OUT for me... but nope, not a one.

And then I realized that, as much as it pains me and Lord knows it does, we gotta pray for Casey too. See, Caylee Anthony is already with our Father, I believe that. No fears, no pains, nothing. But Casey, well, like all of us, needs all the prayers she can get. Even the thief on the cross next to Jesus confessed and asked Jesus to remember him and He did. We set limitations in our minds on sins, the magnitude of them and how WE think they need to be judged, when all along, the Bible only says repent and forgive and that goes for us and Casey. I honestly am going to have to pray hard on this one, I really am cause all I see is a child being hurt, but I know our God is a good God and that He works through every situation under the sun, including this one.

Ahhhh, life... just when I think I have it all figured out.....

There is power in prayer though. I believe that. I have said it over and over. And even sometimes when I am so broken and can't pray for myself, I feel when my friends are doing it for me. God is awesome like that!

This morning, one of my high school classmates needs that prayer. Her name is Charlene and her mom, Zenobia is having her first round of Chemo treatment this morning at 9:15. These treatments are not going to be easy and will probably drain Ms. Zenobia for a while, but I know and believe that God still works miracles today. And there is NOTHING that He can't do. So I am asking that we have a mass prayer this morning. Pray for Ms. Zenobia that the treatments go as smoothly as possible for her w/ little to no side effects, for Charlene and her brothers..... that God keep them strong for their mother and each other.

Good morning everyone! I have to get back into the swing of writing again after being off for the 4th of July! It seems that all my friends went off to the beach without me, but no worries, a good time as still had by my family and me here in Albany. The weather was wonderful!

I pray that you all had a safe and wonderful holiday!

Tomorrow, I will be back on my game. Love you all much and until then... "be a blessing" to someone today!!!