I read a quote today:
"We must always change, renew, rejuvenate ourselves; otherwise we harden."
And I realized that once again I was in that place. It's really odd though. Not really sure how or when that happened. I think it's called being complacent. Being comfortable and thinking that you have it all under control. And for a while, I guess you do. Things truck along, life is good, kids are good, work is good, not much sets you off. It's all in place and "perfect". And then one day, with no rhyme or reason to mention, something happens. Someone says or does something that throws a loop in your perfect world. Something big happens, or quite frankly, God pulls that cord back up that you so hap hazardly let get loose. As time passes, the inside, hateful and hard. And once it does, the hardest thing is trying to get it soft again.
So here I am. Once again. Trying to figure out what in the world I have going on. What got me here and how can I fix it. Again. The stuff we put ourselves though for the sake of earthly happiness, I tell ya. All I can say is thank you for being a loving, caring and forgiving God.
It's just me and my thoughts
- No matter how mixed up it may seem, these are MY thoughts and how I see it
- I'm a simple girl who likes simple things. I am just trying to finally get my life in order. I write not really to give any kind of advice, but to kinda just talk my way through situations that happens to me. If I can help someone else along the way, then that's good too. I don't profess to have all the answers and as a matter of fact, I mess up quite often. But I know that God loves me amd wants nothing but the best for me and those around me. I hold on to that everyday. Not looking for any kudos, just trying to make it, one day at a time.
Amen to that sister. We all experience that and we listen to the evil one whisper false fake sweet nothings in our ears that tell us no one else feels this or is going through tough times and God wont forgive us. Guess what, you are here still breathing and that means God hasn't given up on you and you shouldn't give up on yourself either. ;)
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Been missing your thoughts! Thank God we can always run into His loving arms. We are all works in progress. Every day a step forward!
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