I read a quote today:
"We must always change, renew, rejuvenate ourselves; otherwise we harden."
And I realized that once again I was in that place. It's really odd though. Not really sure how or when that happened. I think it's called being complacent. Being comfortable and thinking that you have it all under control. And for a while, I guess you do. Things truck along, life is good, kids are good, work is good, not much sets you off. It's all in place and "perfect". And then one day, with no rhyme or reason to mention, something happens. Someone says or does something that throws a loop in your perfect world. Something big happens, or quite frankly, God pulls that cord back up that you so hap hazardly let get loose. As time passes, the inside, hateful and hard. And once it does, the hardest thing is trying to get it soft again.
So here I am. Once again. Trying to figure out what in the world I have going on. What got me here and how can I fix it. Again. The stuff we put ourselves though for the sake of earthly happiness, I tell ya. All I can say is thank you for being a loving, caring and forgiving God.