My world and how I see it

"Jesus was matter-of-fact: "Embrace this God-life. Really embrace it, and nothing will be too much for you. This mountain, for instance: Just say, 'Go jump in the lake'—no shuffling or shilly-shallying—and it's as good as done. That's why I urge you to pray for absolutely everything, ranging from small to large. Include everything as you embrace this God-life, and you'll get God's everything. And when you assume the posture of prayer, remember that it's not all asking. If you have anything against someone, forgive—only then will your heavenly Father be inclined to also wipe your slate clean of sins." - Mark 11:25-26 (The Message)

There have been many time in my life where someone has hurt me or wronged me. Too many to count actually. And I will be the first to tell you, I didn't forget OR forgive. And some of it was really "big" stuff. Some specific stuff. And I would imagine the people around me knew all about my hurts since I probably told the stories over and over and over. All the time saying "I forgive" and "I'm okay", but inside, I was still fuming and as far as I was concerned, I had every right.

But those things controlled me. My every thought and move. And honestly I still have flashbacks every now and again, but I have to quickly get myself in check cause I really didn't like the person I became when it took control. So one of the hardest things in the world for me to do was to forgive. I mean really forgive and it took a LONG time. I can't even tell you when exactly it happened, I just know now that I can be around these people and it's not an issue anymore. I don't bring it up in conversation everytime we speak or throw it up in their faces anymore. I guess you could say I am growing up some.

We expect alot from the people we love. We want them to always be honest and never ever do us wrong. But in reality, as people who are not perfect, we ALL will disappoint at some point in our lives. And even though we like to think so sometimes, there is no thing, or "sin" worse than the other. And I have had some major ones to hit me (well, major in my head)... but if we expect God to listen to us and forgive us when we mess up ( and for me, that is too many times to count) then how can we not forgive other people, when they do things to us. Not saying that it's easy or will happen over night, but if you don't even try...... then the verse is very clear " if you do not forgive, neither will God forgive you".

I pray you are all having a blessed week. Alot of things happening and going on that would test a person's faith seems to me, so we gotta stay strong and keep praying for each other. That's the only way to survive... love you all and be blessed.. until next time, Lord willing...